6.MELANCHOLY

A new sem starting, everything was the same except me . I became silent,  everyone stared , rumored, i just ignored for my parents. There were certain people purposefully teasing me , making posters out of it. 

at hostel, arohi and mia was acting like they dont know anything. they were behaving the same. i felt sad for them too. Arohi , came and hugged me. we both burst out into tears.

The next mornig, some one knocks the door, our photo ws their in the main noticeboard. i ran to see that , i fainted out seeing that, ( naked photos in the bed ) .  i could my soul going out of my body, i was only able to see the past,  our happiness, the love we shared , care , our laughter,talk , coffees we had together, our three years of relationship. how could he do this to me ???

hospital :

mole, mole, what happened ?? amma cried. 

doc; who is her parents ? pls do come to my room.

amma and achan went to his room. doc : i dont know how to tell you , your daughter is one month carrying. pls dont shout at her or make her depressed , it is too dangerous for her and the child.

achan: can we do anything sir, abortion or something? my daughters future (cried louder )

doc : you can decide , sometimes a 40% you can save your child or just the kid!!! ( amma and achan left the room )

me asked amma , what did he say amma ? i am feeling tired , what happened to you both ? achan is so sad , why amma ? ( he left the room )

amma : mole , you are pregnant. as your acha and amma we dont want to know anything from you, all i have to tell you is dont be sad, we want you . we love you mole. your achan , he is so lucky to have yu as his child, your brother he is waiting there for you. we will look after you till our last breathe. ( kissed my forehead )

From that moment i havent spoken a word to anyone, i was discharged from the hospital the next day. i took some leave since i need some rest mainly my body need some rest. Again , home back to my old room.  " i had spent all my time with him , now these four walls. what have i earned ? i lost everything, everyone blaming me. Yes !! i was a bad child for my parents , a bad sister for my brother. but still they love me , care for me , what did i do then ?? never took a second thought when i had sex with him. why ? Arohi , was correct. why god ?? why me ? why me always ?? why ?? "

A week later, amma i am planning to go back to college . because all i can do is for you is just study , and to have a great future. i hope achan will be happy . at least lemme do this for him. i am leaving amma, and amma tell him that ' i love him a lot amma. i made a mistake , i know he will forgive coz hes my dad but he cant forget this in his whoke life ma . i am sorry !! '

college :

I went confidently to my class. i ignored everyone , everyone including arohi and mia. i got permission from principal and warden to change the hostel room , i took a single room for me. evryone started their job, creating rumors. but all i did was just ignore them all. i cared for myself, my parents and my kid. 

Arohi tried many times to contact me , but I. I know she had cared for me from the begining, coz she was my real friend. some days are bad , some are good. i went to all places he took me through my past , just to show my kid. The coffee shop, beaches, parks......!! Sometimes i could feel i am done with this life , then i made myself feel better because i have to live for some reason. few days later , arohi came into my room , me , what arohi ? arohi said , i want to tell you something serious , listen to me peacefully  . that is  about mia .  one day when she came late i asked her ;

Mia , where were you ? arohi asked. oww i was in a friends room , said Mia. Which friend ? arohi asked. 

why do you want to question me ? i am not priya okay . mia replied. Arohi said okay. And as soon as she went for bath i took her phone and checked and was shocked to see her gallery, it was full of bad videos and photos. And i saw yours too. And something else too, Mias photo with one senior girl. i dont know how to tell you this .  Priya , all these problems were created by her only. She was the one that spread everything to the college and i think she maybe the reason for Navins disappear . 

me , hmm maybe . its okay d. dont tell anyone about this. that will ruin her life , i dont wanna do that . let her be free. arohi , so navin ? I smiled, Navin , he believed her more than me , then why me ? now i am happy with my life d. and arohi , thanks . and i am sorry too . ( hugged each other )

The next morning , Arohi shifted her room with Priya . Both were happy. Arohi took care about me. because i was 3 months pregnant by that time. Mia , we didnt purposely avoided her , but she went on so ..!! Maybe she is happy. Months passed , we were busy about the fest , then exams and all. and now noone speak about me , doono why ? evryone cares even the staff memebers too, that was too strange. For few days Mia was missing , when thought of checking her in the room. THe room was not cleaned like for days , she was sleeping . i think shes drunk. we poured some water on her face , she got up and as soon as she saw me , cried louder and hugged me tighter. Mia, i am so sorry , i donno what i have done !! We three hugged each other , went college together after a long time. Everyone stared at us like they saw for thr first time. ( days passed )

It was end of our year , final year was getting over , we were so sad od misiing our friendship, college days evrything we had here . But me , i was happy leaving her e, all i had was my past . it always sucks but i could fiish this for my dad. he will be proud . i finished this . Now he know her daughter is not a bad girl, now its time to leave everyone . All silence , a letter to my dad 

                 " achaaa, the person who i love most because you knew i love coffee more than anything. but thats just past acha. now i hate it maybe you know the reason. i am sorry , i wasnt a good child , or a good sister or a good friend ... i was nothing . when you came to know that i was carrying , you never asked me . nothng shocking for me because you love me more than anything , i knew it acha. I loved him a lot acha, his name is Navin. i trusted him with my life. he told me he will ask his parents to call mine , but . i know he was mistaken. it is okay . i could contact him, but no acha. i dont want him anymore. or this life too. now you can be proud that i got my degree as you liked. its time for to leave . bye acha. love you .

 - your priya -"